Daring yourself to dream is a great idea, and I suggest that everyone give it a shot at some point in life. Today could be the day you start allowing your mind to wander a little more into the depth of your true self.
My entire life, I thought that I had a clear-cut vision of my path, where I wanted to go, and who I was. Theatre was my thing, and I buried inside of me the fact that I have always been a serious sucker for music of all genres – be it a tender pop ballad, a neck-breaking metal jam, or a soulful serenade that never fails to grab my heart with eloquence, music speaks to me on the deepest level possible. It makes me feel more alive than anything in the world, more connected, in tune. No pun intended.
So, to make a long story filled with tears, sleepless nights, and hours of being locked in my room (think “Beethoven Upstairs,” and you’ll have a pretty accurate depiction of my days), shorter and less painful, some VERY EXCITING things became OFFICIAL in my life.
For one thing, I am officially a member of BMI as a working songwriter. That means that I am now part of an organization that houses the likes of Britney Spears, Maroon 5, Elton John, and Sting, to name just a few. What projected all of this into motion, you wonder?
I just worked for an incredibly iconic act, and am still pinching myself!
None of this would have been possible without the guidance and constant motivation from some really incredible people who seriously believe in me, and everyone who has been cheering me on from the start.
I am so lucky to have you all in my life, and this is, truly, just the beginning……♥
Being on stage as yourself, as opposed to following a script, is a completely contrasting experience. Interpreting the work of others is, without a doubt, a very rewarding experience, but I’ve never felt more fulfilled in my life than I did after opening for Dan Curcio at his album release party this past weekend. I have a mere shadow of the confidence that I once possessed as a precocious three year old, but bearing my own heart and soul for others to connect with, or possibly judge, has brought me into the most interesting state of mind. In the midst of wanting to land every riff and hit every note perfectly, I began to realize how much I care, and how much my need for perfectionism runs my life. It was in this moment, this fruition of consciousness, when I began to wonder how many of us wait a lifetime to pursue what we are truly passionate about due to a lack of believing in our own capabilites.
. I began to realize that no matter how much you plan, how perfect you want something to end up, or how hard you may try to lock down everything in your act, your life, something will ALWAYS happen that will require you to get creative. My goal to reach a state of perfection totally altered within those seven minutes. Instead of fighting with all my energy to NOT MESS UP, I’m going to reverse that psychology and, instead, GIVE MY ALL with every word. If the world is effected by the way we perceive it, then maybe it’s time for me, for all of us, to make a change with our attitude toward ourselves. I am, without a doubt, my own worst critic, but I have the type of heart and soul that reaches deep within others to focus on the power, the beauty, and the real magic inside. So, why not do that with myself, ourselves?
